It's all in my head

Its around 1.30 am. I can't sleep. My ovaries or whatever it is are hurting..😞😖 my anxiety and sadness are just in full blown alert. I want to escape it but how can I when it's on my own head??? Ugh!! 😮‍💨😤😓😟 I feel so alone too... 😭😭😭😭😭

I was outside. Taking a hike on Saturday with my mom. She just right away mad me feel like shit.

I told her I worked and I might not be able to walk very far. She just comes at me and like I'm making an excuse and I'm lazy?? And that when do you go outside to the woods? I may not be out hiking every damn day but I love nature !!  I have been working 7 hours every day moving around. Standing on my feet. Just makes me so sad. She makestgose comments. I had to stick to going for that hike. She still continued with that . My legs started to feel weird. I wanted to rest. Made fun of me... Just hurts alot. I'm trying to get myself to do stuff. Last time I'm going with her ... She hasn't no one else either. Get some real friends . Don't count me in

Just not what I had in mind for my Saturday ☹️