it sucks...

To miss him. Right now i do . He hasnt even tried to reach out.. Nothing at all. What does that say? You dont miss me , or care ?? Am I that disposable.. ☹️ Geez thanks alot. Asshole!!!!

Im still hurt, angry and upset.  Its only been 2.5 months since I spoke to him . Some days are just harder.I been in touch since 2008. Its a long time. Long time to just forget. 😞 Did i even know him. 

He sure is a good actor. 

But then i have to remind myself 

You are a narcissist .

 

Hello March

This week has been a tough week. I was at my 2nd job Friday for 5 hours!! It was so much to do! 

I was just exhausted afterwards😵😵😵 

I have dentist next week on Friday. I have dentist . The being touched with tools inside of your mouth... Noo ☹️☹️☹️. 

I also asked my mom if i could borrow money for it. I rather do a payment plan than take from myself . She made me feel so bad about it. I wont do it.. i will manage or just re schedule it til next month . 

Today just seem shitty. I feel tired and so down.

😞

Flower Power week

Got a flower telegram today. A neighbor was so happy my mom found a package that was hers. The delivery hd just tossed it before Christmas. She was happy got it back! ❤️❤️

These ones are from me for my Mama. She had her Birthday on 20 February. I got half of orange and white roses.

I also bought red roses for me. They have died already but it was nice to buy a bouquet for myself 🥰. They aren't cheap 🫤

 just had a crappy week... 😟😟😟😟😟

Weekend is here. No work . I actually called in sick. I just werent there mentally.